Sleepless nights, Tension filled days, appraisals, ratings, fights with others, fights against illogical policies, blah..blah..blah
My mind deserved a break...my body demanded one! Fell ill and I was more than happy to spend few days at home. I wished it would atleast bring me back to normalcy...
Well, did it?? A big big NO :( There was a constant 'background job' (as we call it in SAP) running in my mind taking my thoughts to office and work again and again. No matter, how many ever conscious attempts were made by me to ward off thoughts abt unpleasant things of office, I found myself virtually ending up in office, imagining certain meetings, visualising some telcos, always fearing some bad things.....
Things which might seem trivial and petty for others appeared gigantic for me and started worrying me. "Hey wait!", I told myself at times, "are any of these ratings/decisions going to impact me in the office?" I know the answer all through- "not at all". But then "Why worry for someone else's career and spoil happiness?"- a question frequently asked my parents, many of my friends and a question which I tried asking myself many a times just to get me out of the unpleasant phase. "I need not...I need not..why worry at all.....c'mon this is just so minor an issue", I answered to myself...answered to myself so many times and continuously; only to realize that even such answering is ultimately letting my thoughts ponder around office work!
Sometimes we desperately wish for some events to happen or some sensation to take place... to overcome such situations and shift the gear of our minds; take us to an elevation where we just live in the moment, enjoying every minute and don't care about anything. Few call that state as 'HIGH', some call it a 'KICK'....Whatever it may be...such an event came...and I got it by SPORT! :)
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